Having a person who I can call a best friend, a special human being who had always been there for me when I needed, through the bad and good times a brilliant kind which is easy to friend but hard to keep; and I am pleased that I have one which I can called a best friend.

          However every minutes and seconds things changes till I realized now we were all been separated into two different worlds. One filled with love; the other filled with struggle. Living far away from each other but still tried so hard to keep in touch.

          Main while, by knowing that lots of things had changed since I’ve been away and it seems like I left her alone in a dry desert. Things had changed because time goes by fast; really fast to a point that makes me have not notice that my best friend is about to be 21 years old.

          However, thinking backwards about the time her and I were still in high school, acting such as wangsters but, now everything seems different. Each of us has been caring themselves as young adults, living a life filled with struggles and pain as a result of working hard toward future success.

          for me, to look at her situations it tear me a part seeing her doing the best she can to survive plus having nobody beside her to help or support her; no place for her own which she can call it a home, working too hard to help her family back at home and having dreams that seems impossible to achieve without having a special person to land her a hand and supports.

         The fact knowing that I am the human who she calls best friend, a person which she trusted with her deepest secrets and I cannot do something to help her makes me think that I am a loser and It’s just heartbreaking to me, which leads my thoughts to say “I wish if I can help”. Well, it does not sound even encouraging enough than a pain in a heart.

          However that’s life it has its ups and downs, so all I can think about now is to wish and pray for things to get better, and that’s why it’s heartbreaking to me, why? Because I think it’s my time for me to give her a hand just like she did when I need her; I mean financially and mentally… and isn’t that what a best friend suppose to do? But it sucks that I know I can’t because I am having a kind of similar situation which I needed to take care of it. I’m sorry I wish if I can help.

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO SASHA…”I WISH IF I CAN HELP” 

Posted: April 15th, 2008 under Uncategorized.
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         Freedom is a word that excites almost everyone, but it can mean different things to different people. Personally, I used to think of freedom as when I turned the age of eighteen years old, so I can live my own life by my own rules instead of my parents. Because I realize that, life seems to be hard when there are so many rules to follow, which leads my mind to thinking that I’m not free. However, I already passed that age and I still don’t see any changes because the rules are the same as long as I live with them. In this case, freedom is dreadful to me and all I wanted were nothing than to escape from it, which was often a negative concepts it is a reaction against something.

            For now, freedom means to choose one’s own course of action. Freedom is something that exists in each person’s minds, the freedom to think something different from what considered freedom to express myself without fear and be different. Meanwhile, I agree that freedom is wonderful, and that we are already free by nature even though our minds tell us that we are not free sometimes. Also we leave a strong desire to be free which comes with responsibilities and determination.

            In conclusions I believe that freedom can be anything; it can mean a good life, it can be for or against, it can be just an illusion not a fact, it can be a free will or determination, and it can play a role as consciousness. But in the end I strongly agree with the quote from the popular songs which says, “Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose.” so tell me do u agree with this quote or you disagree? if you disagree what do you think the word freedom means to you?

Posted: April 4th, 2008 under Uncategorized.
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          If I had that much money for sure and I know it’s totally hundreds percent free, I will get a two way ticket to fly to a beautiful places somewhere in Europe, maybe Rome or London but about the city or state it doesn’t matter why? Because Europe is the place I’ve always dreamed and wanted to visit and because of it’s interesting facts or histories that I heard or studies about which it really catches my attention especially the ancient histories and places that really makes me think about how and what happened during that time and how will it BE if I had to go back to that time and just experience how life was back than.

          And if I had extra cash money left I will spend it on shopping, relaxing, taking personal tours, sleeping in a fancy hotel and of course invite a friend to come along with me. But most of all I will make sure I will save some money to give it to my family to enjoy spending it with me. Last but not least, make sure that I will use some of them for a serious smile makeover so I can feel free to smile and enjoy my life with a bright smile that will give me confident in myself and feel strong about my future goals and dreams of being a future president, news host, professional soccer player or a role model to young people. SO TELL ME WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

Posted: April 1st, 2008 under Uncategorized.
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