The Nature of Nervousness
Sometimes, I just don’t want to do anything. I would like to curl up and sleep my day away for no good reason at all. Especially after fighting with the computer for hours filling out forms for college. And, honestly, I’m starting to feel a little nervous about the whole thing.
I know everyone gets nerves about such a tough thing as going to another state for college, especially in a big city when the biggest thing they’ve ever faced is Omaha. But It’s the money thing that scares me, not just leaving my family. There’ll be new responsibilities like making payments on time, making sure the money is there, getting a new job, and finding out what I should do with some personal obligations that I may not be able to afford anymore. With all that, and coordinating a lot of other stuff on my mind, it’s hard to keep things in perspective.
And yet, I know that everything I am seeing right now will play out a lot slower than I think. I will have time to make decisions, work for money, ETC and, also, I will have the rest of my life afterward. It’s hard to remember that your life doesn’t end at a big event, but that the big event, whatever it is, leads to more, that is greater. And it’s also hard to remember that you’re looking at something that is the barest knowledge of what you’ll have (worst-case-scenario sort of thing). After all, one never knows what new opportunities are afforded later on.
So, in the end, I decided it wasn’t worth worrying about. No matter what, the sun will still rise, I’ll still have fresh air in my lungs, and I’ll have a big world full of possibilities waiting to happen. So, even though I’m nervous, I’m excited; elated; exhilerated because of the ‘new’ and ‘exciting’ that is waiting for me just around the next bend.
Have a good week!